I used to think I was really good at ‘change’ and all that it entails; However I have been learning lately, that is not completely accurate. It depends on the circumstances of course, and whoever else may be involved, or how big of a change etc. And as difficult as external changes can be, especially when we are far away from the people we love and the have no control of the situations, the more difficult changes seem to always be internal.
Its been very challenging for me lately, to say the least, as I feel the Lord has been leading me in new ways over these last few months, and stretching me in my faith than He has before. But in each situation, I am always learning to know Him so much more intimately and for this I am grateful for the changes and the challenges. He has become to me so tangible, as my Daily Bread and Provider, when the cupboards are empty and so are my pockets; as my Strong Tower and Refuge, when the spiritual battle is overwhelming and the darts from the enemy are relentless; as my Good Shepherd and Father, when I stray and need His loving hand to guide me back and remind me Whose I am.
I also have been realizing the Lord doesn’t always lead us in the same way as He has done in the past. For example when the Israelites wandered in the Wilderness, they had the pillar of fire by night and a cloud during the day; but when it was time for them to enter into the promised land, and cross the Jordan river, God sent the Ark of the Covenant before them first.
«And Joshua said, “Here is how you shall know that the living God is among you and that he will without fail drive out from before you the Canaanites, the Hittites, the Hivites, the Perizzites, the Girgashites, the Amorites, and the Jebusites. Behold, the ark of the covenant of the Lord of all the earth is passing over before you into the Jordan.»
Joshua 3:10-11 ESV
This for me has been very comforting, to see that God doesn’t abandon us when the waters are running high, and he calls us to step out in Faith. He himself goes before us and prepares the way, and will not fail to lead us through to the other side- what a Mighty and Loving God we serve! This also gives me such encouragement as I know God is continually wanting to do new things in me, or use me in new ways that I feel so under qualified for; because it helps me to cling to so much more to Christ and His power, and Abide in Him daily.
I want to share a quote from the book “Christ Indwelling and Enthroned” by J. Oswald Sanders, which really expounds more on what I feel the Lord is teaching me in this season, which I pray will be an encouragement to my other brothers and sisters in Christ as well.
“The Christian who imagines that life in the Promised Land is one of rest from temptation and conflict, has a great disillusionment awaiting him. There is not less temptation, but more strong and subtle temptation. There is not less conflict, but more constant conflict. The difference lies in the fact that in Canaan the battle is not fought under our own leadership,but under that of the Victorious Man with the drawn sword, Who has never suffered defeat. It is not rest from conflict but rest in conflict.”